I am all about change when it comes to my boys. I understand how loving and sweet they were as little kids was normal. And I understand how distant and closed off they can be as teenage boys. This is all normal, and I know that. They still love me, and I know that. But there is still that longing in my heart for me to be the center of their world again, like when they were little.

For some reason it really hit me hard this year about how much they have changed, and the effect it has on me. I’m sad. I mean, I am really sad. I accept them growing up, and being more independent, but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t pull at my heart strings a little bit, or a lot.

How things have changed:

1. Their “Santa List” came in the form of an email, with links to what they want, instead of a hand written letter in crayon.
2. They have no desire to help me decorate. This use to be something they loved.
3. They don’t ask to make their favorite cookies. I wonder if they even remember them.
4. They don’t ask to drive to the snow and play. This use to be a tradition.

So I’m just not feeling the Christmas thing this year. I’ve only bought a few presents, and I haven’t wrapped anything. I did put up our tree, but I didn’t take a picture of it, because it’s the same damn tree I posted last Christmas. Looks exactly the same, just pretend it’s this year.

I did get really great cards from my mom, Colleen, Lisa, and Mr. Fab. Thanks guys! I didn’t send you a card, as I don’t do cards anymore, but thanks for thinking of me. You guys rock, and it was great meeting you in Vegas last month.

I sure hope this Ba Humbug crap ends soon. I use to LOVE this time of the year.

teenagers, teen boys, Christmas, holidays, Ba Humbug

Oh man, the last show of Season Two was amazing!!!!!!!! The twist and turns in the plot had me sitting on the edge of the couch for the full hour, and I ALWAYS lay down when I’m watching television.

If you haven’t seen this show, you just HAVE to rent Season One and Season Two (coming out soon) at the video store, or on Netflix. Then order Showtime so you can watch Season Three! You can also download Season One at Amazon UnBox, or on iTunes.

Thank you so much Katelyn (from Showtime) for turning me onto this show. You guys have a hit! Here’s hoping that Michael C. Hall wins the Best Actor In A Drama Golden Globe! I’m rooting for him!

Dexter, Michael C. Hall, Julie Benz, Jennifer Carpenter, Erik King, Showtime

I seriously have a problem with socially inept people. I mean really! When they open their mouths to speak, is there any brain activity in that stupid head of their’s that might for a second think, “What I am about to say is probably inappropriate, so I better just shut up.”

Example:

Normal Social Guy - “My wife is dragging me to the mall tomorrow to go Christmas shopping.”

Socially Inept Guy - “Isn’t that about the time you pray for another mall shooting, so you have a good excuse to leave?”

What the hell is wrong with people?????????

morons, idiots, socially inept, fools

That is what Justin told me today after I picked him up from his first class this afternoon. “School Was Fun Mom” I don’t think he’s ever used the two words, “fun” and “school” in the same sentence ever!

When we dropped him off this morning, we went in and met his teacher. She was a super nice lady, and there were only 4 students in the whole class. He went from 39 kids in a class to 4! She spent about two hours with him individually today helping, and he said that he really likes her. “She cracks jokes, and does impersonations. She is so funny.”

He took his first test today, which covered the handbook they had to read about the program, and he got an A! An “A” on a test! Justin! I was, and still am, totally ecstatic about that!!!!!!

So far, so good! I pray that this last! Can you help a momma out and say a little prayer for him as well? Thanks!

junior high school, 7th Grade, 8th Grade, Independent Study, Back on Track

I’m going to be able to say that out loud one day, seriously!

In the meantime, I read the following celebrity sighting on Perez’s blog and drooled:

The fan said, I was behind Eva Longoria in line at Target in San Antonio this morning and she spent over $12,000!!! How in the world does someone spend $12,000 at Target?!

Oh, I would find a way! I would KILL to spend $12,000 in Target. OMG, can you just imagine all the cool shit she bought? Just reading that gives me the shakes.

Could you spend $12,000 at Target in one trip?

target, shopping, Eva Longoria