Julie's Journal
Good girls have diaries... Bad girls have blogs!Well yesterday was quite the day, and I was very happy to lay down in bed and fall asleep. I had a little chat (HA) with Justin’s math teacher. I got to voice my concerns over the cram session she calls teaching, and she went on to tell me that summers are usually time off for teachers but she “volunteered” to teach this summer. So basically what I took from the conversation was she doesn’t want to be there anymore than Justin does, so it’s a lose lose situation for everyone.
There is some “no homework” policy that she decided to break, and gave me the missing assignments that Justin needs to make up at home. I explained to her that while they are cramming all day with 14 pages out of the math book, that Justin gets behind. Then the next day with 14 more pages, the cycle starts all over, and there is really no possible way for him to get caught up, without taking some of them home.
She had also told me that one day Justin fell asleep at his desk, and instead of waking him up, she took a picture of him with her cell phone, just in case I wanted to see it. Now does this seem as horribly wrong to anyone else as it does to me. Turn the tables a bit. Let’s say a male teacher took a picture of your daughter with his cell phone. All fucking hell would break lose now wouldn’t it? Her intentions were probably very innocent, but I don’t feel comfortable with it at all, and I told her so. I mean really, what is she going to do with this picture? Upload it to Flickr? Upload it to her MySpace. Does she own the website “kidsthatsleepinmyclass.com.” WTH? Not cool, not cool at all.
So my day ended with my family calling 911, because I had a panic attack. At least I think that is what it was. I had taken the Xanax that my doctor gave me, but things still felt like doom, and I just didn’t think I could get a handle on things. I got scared, and nervous, then just shut down. I could hear them talking to me but I couldn’t respond. They checked my vitals and I was fine, and there was no need to take me to the hospital. They just said to sleep it off, and that is what I did. Sometimes I just feel so alone, and the anxiety gets the best of me.
I slept in really late, and Michael is working from home so he could take Justin to school today. I took another Xanax around 7AM and it felt good to sleep. Now I just feel numb. So I go from caring too much to not caring at all. I need to find a happy medium in all this.
For those of you using WordPress for your blogs, you know that little saying that comes up in your dashboard on the top right? Today mine says “You’re still goin’ strong.” And you know what? I’m still goin’, I’m just not so sure about the strong part.
[tags]Xanax, anxiety, panic attacks, worrying[/tags]
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I’m sorry you’re so stressed. I hope today is a little better.
Julie, there’s no way that the teacher should have taken a picture with her cell phone. Please let her administrator know that she’s doing that to make sure it stops immediately. The summer school 14 pages of math a day and no-homework policy sounds very suspicious to me as well. I’d check that out too if it were me.
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Sue ~ I really think the homework thing is her way of not wanting to do any extra work. I understand they can’t take home their math books, but for their to be homework she would have to photo copy these pages. Maybe there is some copyright laws involved in that also. Hmmm. But, since she did copy the pages for me and sent them home after I pitched a fit about it, I’m thinking it’s just her being lazy. Why else would she end up doing it for us? KWIM?
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Ditto what Sue said! That teacher needs an attitude adjustment from on high. And why CAN’T the kids take their math books home? That’s just INSANE! I just think she doesn’t want to grade it!
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I’m sorry you had a panic attack! They are so scary and out of nowhere. I hope you find that happy medium too. It sucks to feel numb, and not know how to get out of it.
The picture thing, would piss me off too. I think that is just beyond wrong and just weird!!! What did you say to her about that? She thought you might want to see it? When was she planning on asking you if you wanted to see? What a weirdo!
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Taking pictures of kids with her cell phone is at best poor judgement on the teachers part. I would definitely report it. Is this summer school supposed to be a review of what was taught during the year or are they learning new topics? I can see how if they do math all day long (is it all day?) the kids need a break and maybe shouldn’t be doing homework as well. Is Justin falling asleep just a one time thing? I assume he’s getting enough sleep? I am one who has a heck of a hard time learning from a lecture. It’s hard for even the most interesting person to hold my attention. Is it possible he needs one on one tutoring r online learning? Maybe there are other options that would suit his learning style better? He’s probably pretty young to realize just how miserable the next few years of school will be for him if he doesn’t have a good grasp of these concepts. Good luck. I hate to see kids struggle in a system that doesn’t suit their learning style. ((Hugs)) to you too. I’ve never had an anxiety attack but it must be pretty scary.
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that teacher situation sounds like a nightmare….seems like the “best ” teachers all have one thing in common: they all actually LIKE what they do
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Julie, I don’t understand what the ‘teacher’ is trying do. Aren’t there guidelines for summer classes that holds that ‘teacher’ accountable? It sounds more like a policy of torture than teaching. How is a child to develop math skills or learn anything under that system?
Anyway, I hope this comment finds you feeling better today.
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Not cool about her taking that picture. As for the anxiety, i wish there was a way to help, but we all have to get through those things somehow and figure out how to work around them :\ Wish I had an answer for you
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I would think a convo with administration would definitely be warranted. Justin, for whatever reason, didn’t get the math during the regular school year – does anyone honestly think that ‘The Super-Cram’ is really gonna do anything for him?! OMG, that teacher just makes me livid!!! I’m so sorry that you and he are going through this!
Panic attacks are scary – I have had plenty of them! {{{{{{{{{Jules}}}}}}}}}}
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I don’t blame you for being upset concerning that teacher. I’d be reporting her to make sure it never happens again.
I hope your day today is better!
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You have every right to be upset. Sorry to hear that happened to you.
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