Julie's Journal

How much do I love my husband? I love him with all my heart, and this week that loves has really been put to the test. He’s going through some things at his job, that has added so much stress in our lives. His job, my surgery, it’s all intertwined into this big ball of shit. He’s so stressed out, and I feel so helpless, as I can’t do anything about it other than to be supportive and listen. Every single fiber of my being wants to go to this office and make it all better, but I can’t make a difference, then I get frustrated, and I get angry, and not too soon after we are arguing over things neither one of us has any control over. I thank my lucky stars everyday that we can have grown up arguments that end up with hugs and kisses, other than the violent ones I was previously involved in.

But I do have a point to all this. Currently he is sitting next to me playing Enter Sandman by Apocalyptica, with the Winamp lyrics plugin going, singing at the top of his lungs. He’s so off key, and he sounds so funny, but he sounds so happy, and stress free. Something I haven’t seen for a week now. I wouldn’t trade this moment for anything in the world. Oh shit, now he’s playing The Simpsons theme song and humming along. I better find one of our stethoscopes just in case he stops breathing from all his singing at the top of his lungs. Things are all good in Just Julie’s world.

[tags]Apocalyptica, Metallica , Enter Sandman, WinAmp, WinAmp plugins[/tags]