March 17, 2006 was my last day at my job that I have had for 3 years. I waited awhile to blog about it because the whole experience was filled with deep emotions. Over the many years that I have blogged (6 years now) I have learned not to write when your emotions are at an all time high. It always turns out disastrous.

Over the years my old company was very good to me. They even hired me back after I took a stab at another career. Management seemed to have their act together. The sales floor was booming. Things were going good. Then the outsourcing to other countries began. The people that I had worked with for years started getting laid off, and I was very nervous for many months following. I had somehow escaped the wrath of being replaced by five Filipinos and went about my job here in the United States.

In October 2005 I was named supervisor of a new department and a new product and I was thrilled. I had the backing of a good Director, at the time, and I knew this new product would be a success. I believed in it almost as much as I believe the sky would be blue every time I looked at it.

I worked hours and hours during the day, and then at night when I got home to make it work. Everyone knows that I put every waking moment I had into this new product. Hell even my friends online saw me disappear from the message boards that I have been on for 10 years, and knew I was working my ass off. I took great pride in what I did and I woke up every morning with the desire to run to work and make it all happen. I saw it as a way to redeem my company from the past mistakes we made. I saw it as a way for us all to make it in a business we love. I wanted to make it big for me, my coworkers, my Director, and the owner of the company. My heart and soul was in it 110%.

Christmas 2005 rolled around and I was still gung ho on my department. I was making fairly good money, I got to hire probably one of the best ever employees I could ever dream of, and I was excited to give my boyz a good Christmas. Something they weren’t able to have for many years after I divorced their father. I got my paycheck on Friday, December 23rd and rushed to deposit it so I could finish up those last minute gifts.

This is where it all spiraled down. Everyone I knew at the company was not able to cash their checks that day. The payday before Christmas! Needless to say there was not much happy happy�joy joy�ho ho ho, going on around there for weeks. And it never ended. Every Friday I’d get my check and there was no money in the account to cash it. This went on right up until my final paycheck that I got last Friday. As of today, there is no money in the account to cash it. I have been to the bank every morning to try.

During these aforementioned weeks of not being able to cash my paycheck the whole system was going to hell. The sales people, overseas, were selling fairly well and the money was coming in. It just wasn’t being put in the payroll account I guess. My department was swamped with work and barely able to keep up. I asked, and asked, and asked until I was blue in the face to hire people to help and it went in one ear and out the other. Or they would give me someone to help then strip them away to go to another department.

I went to my Director daily and asked if we could have some customer support reps for this new product. I explained to him over and over how busy we were. It was always followed with a “sure thing, I will get that for you” but with absolutely no follow up. Days and weeks went by and I did my absolute best working with what little resources I had. I sat and watched other departments that had said support run smoothly, and actually thrive. They had the direction of a true Director behind them. It certainly makes the job easier that way. I tried to push it all aside and say, “Okay you are not behind me or this department so I will make this work with or without you.”

I did what I could until it got so unbearable that I couldn’t take it anymore. I truly believed in something and I so wanted to make it work for everyone. But without that support and no power to override said support my hands were tied. I left for the day on March 17th, (bad payroll check in hand) and had no intentions of ever coming back. I came in early on Tuesday March 21st, in the presence of a Human Resources manager, and got my things. End of story.

Now it’s time for a little fun and a chance for me to dispute some of the things that are being said about me now…after I left.

Statement ~ “She must have “sabotaged” things before she left!” These procedures are a mess!”

Every procedure written was CC’d to upper management and my Director. Nothing was ever put into place without their approval. These procedures were printed out and left on my desk, and also a copy of them were on the server. My entire database of clients was organized, current, and completely caught up on my last day there. Because you never took the time to do your job by reading them doesn’t mean that I “sabotaged” things. People will always point fingers at others to save their ass huh?

Statement ~ “The way she left was so unprofessional”

Yes, I would agree with you to a certain extent. The only things that I can say in my defense are one�I hate saying goodbye. Two�I know they would have tried to talk me out of it and I would still be sitting there today with a paycheck I couldn’t cash and no one listening to my request. Three�in the 25 years of my working career I have always given a two weeks notice before leaving where it was well deserved. And four�how professional is the company to begin with?

Statement ~ “She must have left so she can start her own company.”

No, as stated above the reason I left was your lack of help, and the distance you so conveniently created so if you didn’t see the problems they didn’t exist. But hey yeah! Great idea, thanks! I should start my own business. I certainly have the experience in what not to ever do in business.

Sooooo�in a, not so small nutshell, that is the latest thing going on in my life. My kids are great! My boyfriend is incredible. And I am 200% positive that I made the best decision I could ever have made.

Once again…oh yeah! Hot Chris Daughtry singing Creed’s What If.

Here is the Chris Daughtry - What If video

Chris Daughtry did it again and BLEW ME AWAY. Okay…Live did almost the same cover so it wasn’t totally his own version, but he did an awesome job of making it a Chris song the way he always does. He is so HOT!

I can’t seem to find the video tonight, but take a listen to Chris Daughtry - I Walk The Line

I splurged on myself today and got some hot new designer Coach Sunglasses. Except I paid $20.00 bucks for mine at the smoke shop while I was buying a carton of Marlboro Light 100’s. Oh yeah! White trash. So sexy.

I got sick of my blog design, so I descided to change it up a bit. I hope you like it!