Julie's Journal

sigh…

Despite the fact I have several medical issuses that need to be addressed first, I am so ready at this point in my life to take a trip to Los Angeles to visit Dr. 90210. There is no doubt in my mind that he is the best doctor to trust despite the high price tag.

I’ve wanted to have re constructive surgery for almost 10 years now, and it’s the time to do it. For me and only me.

My first born is 14 today. It will always feel like yesterday was 5/28/91 at 2:18PM. It’s so deeply seated in my mind. The way I went into labor. The way I felt. How scared I was. How unsure of what kind of mother I would be. The way the room looked. My doctor. My nurses. The pain. The way I couldn’t push when everyone was screaming at me to. How he looked when I first saw him. The intense love I felt immediately upon looking into his eyes. My mom calling on the phone in the labor room for updates. The first time I realized I was a mother.

We hugged today at 2:18, and it meant the world to me.

J.R.’s football physical was last night.

He weighed in at 165 pounds, and 5’9″ tall.

My baby is growing up, and he also turns 14 years old tomorrow.

Well my doctor called this morning while I was in the shower so Michael talked to her. She wants me to go for another ultrasound since the last one I had was 2 months ago. I couldn’t schedule the ultrasound before my appointment tomorrow, so everything is now pushed back until June 17th. So three more weeks…just three more weeks.